Cancer, life and love

  My cancer battle has been tough.  Being sick everyday has left me exhausted and feeling lonely.  My hubby works long hours, and since I have moved an hour and a half from my friends my life consists of painting, sleeping with the company of two cats.   This treatment is different then my last chemo battle.  The side effects lasts weeks and just when I start to feel normal I get another infusion.  On some days I wonder what it would be like to just have no to treatment.  Depression has entered my life even though I do have the best husband who tries so hard to make me happy, it just feels hopeless when I am housebound with no one to talk to.  I went to the grocery store yesterday, I was so tired and sick when I returned that I had to take a handful of pills and I went to sleep.  When CJP came home, he fixed dinner which made feel guilty that he worked all day and then came home to cook.  He doesn't complain, he is supportive and loving.  I just feel he got short changed with me.  We have not been married a year and he is stuck with a wife that is fighting for her life.  
As I write this, tears stream down my face...life is kind of sucks right now

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